Sunday, May 31, 2009

Love Love Love


God, I love my husband.

I just do. We make a great team. We had friends over for dinner tonight and I love that he still wants to rub my foot with his foot under the table. He made a brilliant Shepherds Pie for dinner too.

I've become such a social leper lately. I'm so in love with the both of them that staying home is so much more fun. I had a chance to spend some time on my own this afternoon done but I wanted to take the both of them out for lunch instead. Crazy lady that I am these days.

Life is so beautiful right now xx


Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Crossroads

I am meeting my boss next week for lunch to talk about my job. I've extended my maternity leave from 6 months to 12 months but I want to ask him about the possibility of working from home or maybe coming in to work a couple of days a week.

Our savings are taking a bit of a battering. There always seems to be something coming up and I'll save a fair bit of Richard's wage but then its eaten up again. I'm starting to lie awake at night thinking about money. Plus we have just paid out for airfares to London in September (I don't want to go) and then there is spending money on top of that.

I also feel tremendously guilty for not contributing financially to our family. Which is stupid because I basically do everything else. I'm not sure where this new found guilt has come from.

The other side of the coin is leaving Liam if I did have to go back a few days a week. Our only option in childcare. I don't want to leave him, but he's such a sociable little character and loves other people. He'd probably thrive in childcare.

We have to go to London as my brother in law is getting married. I am looking forward to his day and seeing him marry the beautiful Annmarie. And he'll be meeting Liam for the first time. That will be a really special moment.

However, my inlaws are going through some marriage problems and are not speaking to each other. They refuse to speak to each other about the issue but call Richard and his brother constantly to offload their fights. Its causing a knock on effect and I'm really angry about it. The thought of going back for three weeks and having an atmosphere is already making my stomach churn.

Anyway, I'm optimistic things will turn out for the best. Its tough times at the moment and my attitude is you've just got to get on with things and be positive.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Outnumbered

Richard and I have a new tv obsession.

Its a program on UKTV called Outnumbered.

Outnumbered is about the Brockman family of South London, whose two parents are "outnumbered" by their three somewhat unruly children. The father, Pete, (Hugh Dennis) works at an inner city school as a history teacher, and the mother, Sue, (Claire Skinner) is a part-time PA. The three children are eleven-year-old Jake (Tyger Drew-Honey), whose life seems fraught with anxieties, from starting at his new school to the world being sucked into a black hole (anxieties which cause his father even greater ones), seven-year-old Ben (Daniel Roche) who frequently tells lies and asks to watch Little Britain, and five-year-old Karen (Ramona Marquez) who asks too many questions. Other characters who regularly appear include Sue's new age 44-year-old sister, Angela Morisson, (Samantha Bond) and their father Frank, referred to as "Grandad", (David Ryall) who appears to be suffering from senility.

The kids are HILARIOUS. One of the kids in particular Ben, is so funny. Richard and I watch this show on Monday nights and scream with laughter. We spend the whole half an hour exchanging knowing looks and silently thinking 'oh my god...look what we have to look forward to'.

If I was a bit more blog savvy I would post a You Tube clip of the kids. I'll try and figure out how to do that when Liam goes to bed tonight.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Reaching new heights of nanna behaviour

Last night Richard and I went to bed at 8.30pm. Liam was in bed just before 7pm and fell asleep pretty quickly. We started watching some Michael Caine doco and both of us were nodding off.

Richard asked me if I fancied an early night. Sydney's weather right now is just right for early nights, so off we went. I think both of us fell asleep within two seconds. I had to set my alarm for 10.30pm to dreamfeed Liam and when I got him up, he was chattering away like it was 7am.

It took me until midnight to settle him, but I feel so much better for getting a few extra hours. I'm obsessed with sleep right now and how much I get each night. I also get funny when my childless friends talk about sleeping in till 11am or thereabouts. Richard and I used to do this pre-Liam and if we were going out for lunch, we'd make it out the door by 1pm on most weekends. By 8am on the weekends the house is clean and we have washing on. Jeez...how times have changed.

Liam is up at 7am on the dot each morning. If its one things that kids do, they teach you how to squeeze the last drop out of each day.

Before you know it we'll be having our dinner at 5.30pm!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Guess who is half a year old today?


That's right, Liam.

Where did those six months go? It seemed like only yesterday we were strapping him into his car capsule outside the front of the Royal to bring him home. To be honest, I am struggling to remember those early, early days now. Maybe that is nature's way of making sure you have more children.

This morning we took Liam to Dr Jo to have his six month shots. Dr Jo (we never bothered to find out his last name and he introduces himself as Jo so we call him Dr Jo) is fantastic with Liam and loves seeing him. He always comments on his hair and how he's a 'proper little boy'. Rich and I both get nervous about his shots, which parent doesn't? You'd rather have the needle jabbed into you. We work ourselves up about it and then Liam surprises us by having a quick grizzle and then smiling at Dr Jo. He constantly amazes us.

Liam is starting to make a ton of noises and its so funny listening to him. He'll copy our facial expressions when we take him grocery shopping. Its such a lovely age.

I can't think of a more wonderful time in life to discover your child and discover what it means to be parents. Its bought me and Richard so much closer and given us the tools to constantly improve our marriage. I'm fiercely protective of my two boys, all I want for them is to be happy and healthy. The love I feel for them is so much bigger than I could have imagined, and that can be quite scary sometimes (me being a constant worrier), but I wouldn't have it any other way. Its real love and real love means jumping in feet first and giving it your all.

Happy 6 months Liam. Your dad and I love you so so much.


xx




Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Operation Perth....

is trying its best to get in full swing.

Richard's resume is ready to go. He's getting in contact today with some people he knows in the industry over there. We are going to cover all angles. Unfortunately, when you look on Seek or any of the career websites suitable opportunities are very thin on the ground. Its a sign of the times I guess.

As always I like to have a backup plan or plan B, so Liam and I went down the end of our road to see the new childcare centre that opened. It is beautiful and I had a really nice feeling about the staff and how happy the kids looked. Geez, even I'd love to work there. We both agree that I need to stay home with Liam for as long as I can, but if we need some extra money, its good to have a childcare option in place.

I just hope and pray that we can be there before the year is out. We feel stagnant and in a rut. We want to crack on with things. We want Liam to be around his extended family and we want a backyard.

Cross your fingers for us. I need a healthy dose of patience.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Come together

Liam and I went to our first playgroup in Coogee this morning. Its held in the Scout Hall near the bowling club.

I think I am going to try out a few different groups in the area, but I really liked this one. Lots of mum's my age and I had a good chat with some of them in the sandpit.

I've come home in a great mood. I've also noticed a Baby Einstein music class in the same suburb so I am going to look into that and although we are due to enrol in swimming lessons tomorrow at Cook and Phillip the 8am start is just too early and will muck up Liam's routine.

I've stopped feeling sorry for myself about how we haven't got much of a support system here. Richard went out with the boys on Friday night and one of his mates made a comment about how having children must be a huge hindrance on your social life and finances. Richard was understandably upset. Yes, our circle of friends don't have children, but Richard and I are finding we are distancing ourselves slightly. Our priorities are just waaayyyy different now. It was so nice to speak to mum's this morning that understood what I meant.

Our little family will get there. Richard and I are going through a hefty transition right now, but in the six months that Liam has been in our lives and god, even prior to that with the pregnancy, we have grown so much as a result. It shits me when some people in particular don't realise it.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Social life - what social life?

I was supposed to go out last night to my friend Steve's housewarming party in Waverley.

On Friday I went and picked up my layby so I would have something to wear.

Last night at 6pm I stood in front of my wardrobe and nothing looked right. What I had bought for winter looks mumsy and bogan-ish and makes me look about 40. I don't know what I was thinking when I tried them on in the change room.

Richard was staying home with Liam and sitting on the couch with him drinking strawberry champagne that I had bought for the party seemed so much more appealing. I knew everyone at the party would be looking perfectly coiffed in their latest Witchery offerings and I'd feel self conscious all night.

I don't know what's wrong with me right now. I had a chance to go let my hair down but all I could think about was if I got home at midnight I'd only get 6 hours sleep instead of 8 (that's if Liam continues his good run of sleeping) and that I'd probably be feeling seedy the following day.

So I rang my friend Steve and said I couldn't come. Liam wasn't feeling well and I couldn't tear myself away from him. He said not to worry. I'm becoming a social leper. By 9.30pm I am ready to be tucked up in bed curled up against the warm hot water bottle that is Richard.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Mum is the word

I hope all the mum's had a great Mothers Day yesterday.

I never knew how much fun Mother's Day was until I had Liam. I got to sleep in till 8am. I got a cup of tea in bed and scrambled eggs on toast. I got treated to a glass of champagne in Coogee. And these two beautiful presents that I will love forever...my pink roses and pink bracelet with Liam's name engraved on one side and his birthdate on the other.

I'm looking forward to treating Richard on his special day too because he's such a fabulous dad.
Thank you my two favourite boys - I love you both very much.




Saturday, May 9, 2009

Caterpillarbrow

When I was pregnant and worked in the city I used to go and get my eyebrows waxed next door to me at work. I got friendly with the owner Sophia, and we used to talk a lot about my pregnancy.

I feel bad that I haven't gone back to see her since Liam was born. She was rather excited for me, but traipsing back and forth into the city to have my brows done with a 6 month old in tow is just a bit too much these days.

So, I needed to find someone local. Someone who could do 'a Sophia' to my unruly brows. Sophia knew just want to do with them and could do them pretty quickly.

I have found Chantel Priddy who owns DankStBeauty on Dank St in Waterloo. She has a salon designed for pram access and loves having the bubba's come along with their mums. Liam sat very patiently in his pram while she tamed my caterpillars, although he did have a tendency to fart during the 15 minute appointment. Who knews babies could fart so much? Chantel thought it was very funny.

She charges a little more than I would usually pay, but I'll be going back.

Here is me with my new brows. If you'd seen a before shot, you would have barely recognised me. Its been a long time between waxes, and yes I have one eyebrow higher than the other. My face is just weird like that.


Friday, May 8, 2009

You go girl

Julia Roberts is on holiday with her family in Hawaii.

I think she looks pretty fabulous for a woman who has had three kids. I also love how she has that lovely, crinkly tummy. Like most mums do:








In recent years, however, she has scaled down her career to concentrate on raising her family.

Despite her enviable figure, she insists she has no desire to flaunt her body in roles which demand she takes her clothes off.

She famously hired a body double for love scenes in Pretty Woman.

'You have a baby and you just want to stay home and stay in your elasticated waist pants,' she said recently.

'I won't do nudity in films. To act with my clothes on is a performance. To act with my clothes off is a documentary.'
At the height of her fame, the actress could command £17million per film, but has since explained how her priorities changed after she became a mother.

She said: 'I never really did years of movie after movie but when you've got three toddlers in the house you're performing all day long anyway with puppet shows and stories. I act around the clock.'

I hear you on the pants Julia.






Shit

My friend Jo popped over without any warning with her dog Blondie yesterday. It shat all over Liam's bedroom and in our main living area.

As if I haven't got enough poo in my life to clean up :)

I knew I should have asked her to keep Blondie on our balcony. But, she takes Blondie everywhere. Blondie is her practise pet so she can ready herself for a baby. Blondie is actually giving her a Mothers Day card on Sunday as Jo proudly told me while I was rubbing bi-carb soda into the carpet.

I need to be more assertive. Because now I am $115 out of pocket and getting my carpets steam cleaned tomorrow.

Yay.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Bah Humbug

I'm not having the best week, so excuse the lack of posts. I think the last two months have caught up with me.

I'm just in a bit of a funk, which is not like me at all. I'm up and at them. I make plans. I do stuff. I make lists. I cross stuff off.

This week I haven't done a lot, and I've noticed myself eating more than I should.

Today is a new day. Liam and I are heading out into the sunshine to make the most of the day.

I'm going to jump into the shower, get invigorated and stop thinking about home so much.

I hope you all have a lovely day...

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

What's the plan Stan?

Rich and I had one of those serious discussions last night about our future.

We've decided that the Perth move needs to happen sooner rather than later. We want to be back in Perth by Xmas.

We are going to London on the 10th September and will be back early October. Our plan is to move back to Perth by the end of December. Richard is re-working his resume and I am on the lookout for houses.

I think we just need to take a risk and just go for it. We both know that once we get there and are settled, we'll wonder why we didn't do it sooner.

We both agree we've stayed in Sydney too long and need to make some changes now to accomodate our growing family. I really hope it all works out.

I love staying at home with Liam, but the truth is I do feel very lonely. I know if I had my family around me it would be different and that feeling of isolation wouldn't be there.

We'll just put our heads down now and work it out. We are good planners so I know it'll be ok.

Monday, May 4, 2009

I'm a big boy now

Yesterday we made our once yearly annual pilgramage to Ikea. I love Ikea. Richard hates it. I have to do some serious sucking up to convince him to go out there. He hates that everyone brings their family to Ikea and there is only one way in and one way out. I guess its his idea of hell. Add a pram to the mix and I can see him almost spontaneously combust.

But...Liam needs a high chair. I'm very excited about the high chair development. Like all mums who reach a new milestone.

Unfortuntely, after driving out to Homebush and seeing the chair we wanted, it was sold out. Richard has to make another trip out to Ikea to pick it up and I need to pre-order it today because apparently they have a new container of them coming in.
Anyway, I took this photo of Liam on Richard's phone and I think he looks rather perplexed by the whole thing really...



And since I love posting photo's of my little duck, I need to show off this one too. I love this hat so much and had to buy it for him. I got it at a great little shop at Fox Studios on Saturday: